Inside

A burning feeling,

A warm sensation.

Not that good kind,

More of a bad kind.

Thinking aloud,

Why?

These feelings,

Getting a lot more,

Intense.

As much as i would,

Rather not feel.

I unfortunately feel,

Absolutely everything.

The pain,

The agony,

Is what i feel inside.

My head fills,

With many thoughts.

Good,

But mostly clouded by the bad.

If only you knew,

The things i Think,

The things i feel.

Maybe one day,

You would understand me.

Not feeling worthy,

Worthy enough to get up.

This is the feeling i have,

Just about every single day.

The struggle getting out of bed,

Inside my head..

If you where there,

You wouldn't,

Want to be here either.

Do you understand me now?

I still don't.

That may explain why,

Why i'm still here.

Hey there everyone!! i am sorry i have taken so long to post something new here to the site. just have had a lot of things going on in my personal life. a lot more depressive shit than normal i guess is the only way to actually describe it. when i say it has been hard to get out of bed i mean it. like some days are seriously a lot harder than most. i try not to show it because of the fact that everyone expects me to be the happy go lucky one. but fuck you guys i'm not. i'm really broken inside. and it sucks because i can sit here and laugh and be smiles in your face when really i'm crying like hell on the inside, depression is no joke you guys.. check on your people, not everybody is okay. not even when they say that they are.

I'm openly saying that NO i am not okay. but i am trying to be everyday. with the love of my friends and my family i will survive. Just Breath....Just Breath..Just...Breath..

But