I Suffer

I cry at night,

Wishing i could see light.

Why me?

I just want to feel right.

I feel like i’m dieing.

But i won’t,

Lay here crying.

People tell me don’t.

What else can i do?

Besides lay here,

And cry.

I can’t feel anymore.

What is there to feel?

I feel dumb,

Even more numb.

I’m suffering.

Nobody can see.

What do you see?

That i’m happy?

When honestly,

I’m really sappy.

I’m sad honestly.

I can’t shake this,

This feeling anymore.

I wish i could.

This depression,

Takes over me.

All i do is isolate myself.

Nobody even notices.

Notices my pain,

And my suffering.

I do this alone.

I suffer.

Suffer alone.

I wrote this a couple of weeks ago, when i was just really having one of my bad days. i do suffer from depression. and well...as these words just flowed through my head, i just had to write it down. or basically type it in my phone. either or, but one thing i do want to say about this one here is that even though you feel like your alone, you're really not. you're never alone, if you need to vent speak to someone, if you're feeling so down and low, tell someone. don't be afraid to speak about your depression. 99% of the world goes through it, including me.